So as I have hinted a lot has been changing. I left my toxic workplace about a month ago. I dealt with a lot of PTSD during my first two weeks and got a medication added to my lexapro regimen. I was terrified of adding a medication on as I felt like I was going crazy at first. But it took a little bit in therapy and convincing myself that none of this is my fault and that my emotions are valid and tell me when change is needed.

Here is what I am taking now: 30mg of lexapro (anti-depressant), 2 mg of aripiprazole (anti-psychotic to balance out dopamine and serotonin levels), and I have been halving a 0.5 mg of clonazepam (for panic attacks) as well. This is what I need to control my anxiety and depression right now and I am not ashamed of that. This transition period has been rough but has taught me so much about myself and what I need to prioritize.

Hell, I am writing this blog post at 7:50am right now with a water and green juice in hand, after stretching and a mediation session. I know my life can’t be like this every day but this is how I want my life to go.

I used to think medication would change my life for the worse for some reason. However, it has only improved my decision making and my daily life habits, as well as my social interactions. I just truly feel no one should be ashamed about speaking up about medication and talking to their doctor about their wants or reservations if it is suggested for them.

Have a great day beloveds.

Also… ya girl accepted an offer to Columbia University’s PhD program for fall 2020!!!! Yee haw.