I have been so outraged by what has been going on in my country concerning the death of George Floyd, an innocent BLACK man who was murdered by police. On my social media accounts, I have been outspoken about my support of the Black Lives Matter movement and in my personal life, but I still feel like I am not doing enough.

I think I feel I am not doing enough because I still filter myself when I am around my mostly white friends and colleagues mostly because that is how I’ve been trained my whole life. I have these conversations about my blackness with my family but I struggle as a black woman being completely unfiltered around my white friends.

I am still hurting so much and I feel I am grieving the death of George Floyd and all the unjust deaths that have occurred due to systemic racism and implicit bias.

I am still fearful of being a victim of violence.

I am still learning how to speak up but I worry about my overall safety..

How do we as black Americans begin to heal and recover from all of this….

I have been pondering this question but I feel the movement is the first step into our healing process as our pain is being seen right now.