All posts by Demi

Black Lives Matter

June 6, 2020 Demi 1 Comment

I have been so outraged by what has been going on in my country concerning the death of George Floyd, an innocent BLACK man who was murdered by police. On my social media accounts, I have been outspoken about my support of the Black Lives Matter movement and in my personal life, but I still feel like I am not doing enough.

I think I feel I am not doing enough because I still filter myself when I am around my mostly white friends and colleagues mostly because that is how I’ve been trained my whole life. I have these conversations about my blackness with my family but I struggle as a black woman being completely unfiltered around my white friends.

I am still hurting so much and I feel I am grieving the death of George Floyd and all the unjust deaths that have occurred due to systemic racism and implicit bias.

I am still fearful of being a victim of violence.

I am still learning how to speak up but I worry about my overall safety..

How do we as black Americans begin to heal and recover from all of this….

I have been pondering this question but I feel the movement is the first step into our healing process as our pain is being seen right now.

Poems

Sun

May 24, 2020 Demi Leave a comment

We rise like the sun and fall like the sun.

But at the end of the day the sun is still the sun, it never goes away completely.

I feel we are like the sun.

Balls of energy so radiant and powerful.

We rise and we fall.

But at the end of the day we are still the same at our core.

Poems

Leaning into the unknown

May 14, 2020 Demi 2 Comments

I am leaning into the unknown.

Becoming comfortable with the uncomfortable.

Feeling all of the growing pains.

During this chaotic season.

I am growing though.

Growing gracefully, beautifully.

Into the unknown.

mental health

Should you see a therapist?

May 11, 2020 Demi Leave a comment

This question is something that I’ve asked myself several times before seeing my first one. But here are some things that I used to do that made me consider going to therapy.

Feeling like you aren’t in control of your reactions.

Do you ever say or do something that you were confused about or felt it was out of your character? I was doing the same thing way too often. And I couldn’t pinpoint why I was acting the way I was and therefore couldn’t tackle the issues I had. I felt like I was not showing my true self and needed help having the reactions that I wanted to have.

Thinking about situations over and over again.

I used to lay down for bed wide awake with all of my past mistakes replaying as loops in my head. It occurred for so long that I thought it was the norm. But it’s not and I was ruminating. It was slowly causing a decline in my mental health as my sleep was compromised.

You turn to substances daily to manage your stress.

Nothing is wrong with your alcoholic beverage every once in a while but if you are using it as a crutch to help you wind down from the stress of daily life every day, consider seeing a therapist. Your problems can’t be pushed down with alcohol and/or other substances at the end of the day and are yearning to be felt and let out.

Do any of these speak to you?